shock absorber

I did not ask to become a level head adviser, i was appointed (meaning wala akong choice). Hesitant to accept because of the many problems, expectations and readiness, i still aknowledged the position eventhough may naririnig at nakikita akong kakaiba.
I have to admit kahit na naging assistant level head adviser ako last sem, i'm still a novice when it comes to leadership and management because i'm really an emotional person, easily affected with what's happening around me although i can hide it perfectly.
Ang daming problems sa level 4, sa mga clinical instructors na minsan gusto sila lagi ang masusunod, may nakabangga na nga ako eh close ko pa kaya lang i'm not perfect, i'm also a human being na pwede ring magalit at magdamdam. Hindi kasi lahat ng bagay nadadaan sa init ng ulo eh.
Mga students, ang kukulit but i already learned to love them all. Iba't iba personalities, my mga highly intellectual that i have to explain all the rationales behind, todo explanations and reasonings, haaaay. Some are very timid and hardheaded and takes a lot of motivation for them to study and be good in their academics. Ang iba akala mo very superior na, hindi pa nga nakakagraduate umasta parang deans at chief nurses na, they don't realize that the people they meet on their way up will be the same people they will meet on their way down. Very few students talaga i consider my real friends because i can really sense their thoughtfulness and respect, individuals whom i know will be successful later in life. I will really miss them all.
I really don't know what's in store for me as being the level head adviser. Sometimes when i'm lying on my bed or simply just studying my lectures, I suddenly burst into tears, i can't explain and i don't know why. Maybe because of the overwhelming emotions I absorb when i'm talking with different students, their heartaches, frustrations, problems concerning their grades, duties, CIs as well as their families. I can't just be numbed and apathetic because for them I am their mentor as well as their second mother.
I understand that i'm still adjusting and still finding and working out how to balance the bulk of work at school and at home. I will uncover it very soon.
Realizing that i have a mission why i was placed in this position inspire me to be at my best and i know even not all, still some can appreciate my worth.